Snapp Secrets

Snapp Secret... I have nothing to be proud of. There is nothing I've accomplished without a little bit of help. There is nothing I've created without the constant cheerleading of friends and family to keep me going. There is nothing I've done in my life without the help of God. Nothing.  I know it is popular to have pride these days. When I was an elementary teacher the school had the children recite a creed every morning and part of the creed was to pronounce their pride in themselves. As a society we love pride so much that we even have pride festivals. I've gone to these festivals and believe me, pride was there. I am not always unprideful like I am today. In fact the other day I was SO prideful I almost posted a story about how very smart I am. What a dumb thing to be proud of. I literally roll my eyes as I think about that day and how prideful I was. Even though the only witness to that day was my husband I am still embarrassed by my pride. Pride is the opposite of...

 Snapp Secret, I'm in pieces today. I feel like my heart was ripped out of my body and it took my spirit with it. I'm broken. I took a pregnancy test and it was negative. I don't know why but this month I really felt I was pregnant, and seeing that single blue line broke me this morning. I know why humans have the desire to repopulate, because God told us to in the very beginning. God placed the desire of having a baby on all of our hearts. And that desire is really pulling at my heart strings at this period of my life. Instead of spending the day crying, I have decided to spend the day putting the pieces back together. The pieces of my pumpkin quilt. All of the pieces you see were whole once. They were whole and apart of large swaths of solid fabric. And I broke them. Much like my period broke me. These pieces, if they could feel, would be in mourning. They would cry out to God, "why have you separated us from the whole?!" And I'm sure God would reply, "...

 Snapp Secret... my adhd is getting better. I used to wait until the very last minute to get a project done. I truly believed I performed better under pressure. To an extent I did. But the stress that would accompany that pressure, oh that stress would make me sick for a month after the project was done. This year I have worked very hard to minimize my stress. I've quit working and become a housewife. I quit RSVPing to special occasions I was invited to. I've eliminated social media. I've turned to God, and leaned on my husband. The stress has simply melted away.  One thing I did this year to eliminate stress is I decided I would start working on Christmas in April. Early, I know. Very early in fact. But here is my thought process... I know my family winter/fall part will be early November, so everything has to be done by then. I also know that the longer I wait to buy Christmas materials the more expensive they will be. I also know that if I take my time and get things pre...