My time with America's Top Model

Snapp secret... I came close to having a completely different life.

When I was about 21 years old America's Top Model scouted me and contacted me through myspace and arranged for me to go to an interview audition. They told me to bring a bikini picture and a clothed picture and a headshot picture with me.

I had no bikini pictures of me at the time so I asked my dad to to take the picture. Yall nothing is more embarrassing than having your dad take bikini pictures of you. But we got the pics taken despite my utter and complete embarrassment.

I printed out the pics and drove myself to an interview audition. I arrived to a room of 200+ women. The staff escorted me to the front of the line, which made me feel like a big hot shot. They took me and a few other women to a private room and lined us all up. And immediatly told me to go home. I was not what they were looking for.

I felt humiliated and ashamed of that moment for YEARS. I swore I would never tell anyone that story. But at 38 years old, and a faithful Christ follower I now have a changed perspective of that moment.

I am no longer embarrassed that I didn't make it. I am thankful I didn't make it. I'm thankful God protected me from having to go through the hardships of that show. I'm thankful God protected me from going down that life path because I never would have met my husband Colt. I'm thankful who I was at 21 was not cast in stone for all to see on national tv, and now on streaming.

I didn't realize at the time how harmful the show was to all of the participants. All I saw was how it might improve my life. I didn't see the tears the girls shed because of the criticisms of the audience. I didn't know how their lives would be impacted for a decade after. But God did. I don't know why God protected me from that experience. But I am beyond thankful to him. My heart mourned for these women that were on the show.

I guess really my moral of the story is this, something that may be embarrassing or humiliating to you now, you may realize is a true blessing years from now. Don't count out God. Something you may think is a curse could be one of the saving moments of your life.

Lindsay Snapp

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